I walked as a ghost through your life. A strange thing with empty thoughts, passing through corridors of perhaps and maybe. Equally on both hands, the possibility of what was and could have been. I saw the friends, the trials, the mundane and the lovers. I felt little, for we were but passing friends as children, I had no investiture in what you were or what you were becoming.
It was a casual kind of interest, a curiosity without caring. Moving through places I'd never been before, how our lives had diverged! What to say though, should ever we meet, what could I possibly comment on or think to mention. But silence as we passed, strangers to one another on the train.
Am I so different?
Are you?
I came upon a place I'd never been, passing through walls. It was dark and smelled of old cardboard, dusty and damp, faded around the edges. I poked at a few boxes, walked across the concrete and thought what might have brought me here when I came upon a sealed case. Sharp iron edges adorned it, and a heavy steel ring of numbers on the front. Curiosity warred within me, and experimentally I spun the dial. Two clicks to my ear where I should have heard four.
I ran my fingers over the cold metal, and then on an impulse lifted the heavy thing up and on its back. There taped to the bottom, a faded brown piece of paper with the numbers scrawled in your handwriting. With a casual twist, the safe opens and inside are shoeboxes filled with paper. Statements, forms, invoices, information. Uninteresting, a canvas of normality to life. Tucked away in the back, a small plastic bag with a handful of scraps in it.
I pause then, without knowing why.
A tiny, faded little red piece of paper. My handwriting there, and a little glittering sticker.
The memory is elusive, I cannot remember making it, but it sits here alone in your world.
I shut the safe, and vanish though shadows into waking.
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