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Wednesday, May 29, 2019

Letters - 15 / 15 Dear People Who Hate Me

Letters - 15 / 15 Dear People Who Hate Me

Dear people who hate me,

Hate all you want, but I will still defend those who need it, and I have no scruples about hitting you over and over when you least expect it.

Watch your back, Honor is reserved for those who have earned the right.

Me

Monday, May 27, 2019

Letters - 14 / 15 Dear Partner

Dear Partner,

This is a letter, sealed from this moment, perhaps this is who I am now, and not who I will be when we meet one day tomorrow. I have no partner at present, I am seemingly walking this strange line again of being a diligent artist, a faithful worker, and a very confused, adrift soul.

Saturday, May 25, 2019

Letters - 13 / 15 Dear Ex Best Friend

Letters - 13 / 15 Dear Ex Best Friend

Dear ex-best friend,

I have never explained out loud why we had our falling out. But I know keenly why.

It is because you disavowed our friendship in order to find social position. I remember it exactly. Because there was someone else, a peer, you wished to impress. So you callously threw years of our friendship away. For someone who was white. For someone who was interesting, and advantaged. For someone you admired, instead of someone you already enjoyed the trust of...me.

Friday, May 24, 2019

Letters - 12 / 15 Dear Person I Hate

Letters - 12 / 15 Dear Person I Hate

Dear Person I Hate,

I forgive you.

It doesn’t mean I don’t also hate you.

But I forgive you as well.

Me.

Thursday, May 23, 2019

Letters - 11 / 15 Dear Person I Love

Letters - 11 / 15 Dear Person I Love

Dear Person I love,

I love you. It’s hard to say, in fact I rarely say it. I know you say that often to me, and I’m not entirely sure what my hangup is on saying it back. But I do love you. For all the support over the years and how we’ve often had so many conversations about our art, our work, and about the changing world. For so many late nights and meals cooked. For sharing walks through parks together, splitting a sip of wine, early morning phone calls (you are literally the only person I regularly speak to on the phone before noon), late night messages, sweeping stages together.

Wednesday, May 22, 2019

Letters - 10 / 15 Dear Future Child

Letters - 10 / 15 Dear Future Child

Dear Future Child,

It is a strange thing, to sit here and pen this letter not knowing anything of you. Or truth be told, if you even will be. At least at this moment in time. I will disclose to you, at the moment I am writing this letter, I know nothing of the potential partner that is my other half, nor is there a prospect of one at the moment, so I shall write this with that in mind.

Monday, May 20, 2019

Letters - 9 / 15 Dear Best Friend

Letters - 9 / 15 Dear Best Friend

Dear Best Friend,

We have been friends for more than two decades. We’ve gone through some weird patches in life, but you are my brother. I chose you, and you chose me. It would’ve been a lot easier a lot of times for us to just stop talking. In fact, I think we both have a lot of experience doing that, it can be so easy to just let the days and weeks go longer and longer without messaging. For a long time in our lives, we would play every night. Now our schedules are different, and distances feel weird, but we’re talking more.

Sometimes I’m nostalgic for what we had even 5 years ago, but at the same time, we’ve grown up and things change. We occupy space differently now.

Sunday, May 19, 2019

Letters - 8 / 15 Dear Future Me

Letters - 8 / 15 Dear Future Me

Dear Future Me,

I need to know if it turns out okay. And I know, given who we are, that you won’t say anything, because that’s not how we do things. I wish sometimes I even knew about all the tiny things. Did we train hard enough? Did we perfect the things we needed to? Did we find the things asked of us. Did we become what was necessary?

Saturday, May 18, 2019

Letters - 7 / 15 Dear First Love

Letters - 7 / 15 Dear First Love

Dear First Love,



It was a long time ago. We were kids. Sometimes I see your posts on social media, facebook or instagram. I never like or respond, and I know you don’t do the same for me either. I’m afraid of opening up old wounds. Are there old wounds? I don’t even really know. I know I messaged once, I guess almost ten years ago now. Never heard back. And I didn’t want to push it.

Thursday, May 16, 2019

Letters - 6 /15 Dear Past Me

Letters - 6 / 15 Dear Past Me

Dear Past Me,

Find mentors, figure out what makes you happy and don’t let people shame you for it. Learn discipline as soon as you can, because you took a long time getting there and the guilt once you got it...sucked. Go easy on yourself when you find things that other people care about, that you don’t. Don’t force it. You won’t have to. And in the end, it probably won’t matter that much anyway.